.·ﾟ With You ﾟ·.

“Jae Joong ah.. where are you taking me? Can’t I take off my blindfold?” Chloe said as she reached for the blindfold.

Before she could slide the black blindfold down Jae Joong gently stopped her hand and moved it away giving a kiss on it, “It’s a surprise. I promised you something special for Christmas.. aegi yah can you just wait … for me?”

Blushing she tried to pull her hand away, “Don’t call me aegi yah.. you know I don’t like that!” she mumbles, “I’m your noona remember..”

With a laugh and smile, Jae Joong took her into his arms, “ But for tonight.. can you be my aegi yah… Let me take care of you.. ne? ”

“…” Chloe unable to think of a rebuttal nodded and sank into the warmth of his arms, “When can I take my blindfold off Jae Joongie..”

“ah we’re here.” Jae Joong said as he led Chloe to the door and led her down finally un blindfolding her, “How does Christmas eve in Japan sound?”

“Eh?” Chloe said as she rubbed her eyes and put on her glasses, “OMO… What? Jae Joongie, are you kidding me?”

With a smile he walked to Chloe, fixing her scarf and put on some mittens on her hand, “iie, nippon he no kangei, kuroii chan”

“You are always full of unexpected things Jae Joongie..” Chloe said as she blushed and poked him in his side.

“hahah But isn’t that why you fell for me in the first place?” Jae Joong said as he took her hand and started running, “I’m starving. let’s go get some ramen!!”

“But… aren’t we going to take a car? Aren’t you afraid we’re going to get mauled by your fans??”

“Today.. I’m just Kim Jae Joong on a date with my beautiful girlfriend.” Jae Joong said as he continued to run, holding Chloe’s hand, but stopped and looked at her pouting, “Unless you would rather get driven around in a big fancy car and go to a fancy restaurant.. we can do that too.”

Cupping his face she smiled and planted a kiss on his lips, “I would want nothing more than to be with you. Nothing else matters.”

“When I’m with you.. I don’t need money or fancy cars.. I just need you…”

As the two looked deep into one another’s eyes, both began to fall for each other more so than before, reminiscing about the last 5 years they’ve been together.
“I love you Chloe ah..” Jae Joong said as he slowly leaned towards her.

Nervously, Chloe turned away red and coughed, “Umm… Jae Joongie.. I’m hungry now… let’s go get some ramen at a street stall and umm some takoyaki too.”

“Great minds think alike.” He wrapped his arm around Chloe and smiled, “Let’s go.”

As the two walked down the streets looking at the lights and many people on the streets, they laugh and play around just like a normal couple. Something they haven’t been able to do as of late because of Jae Joong’s busy schedule. Chloe knew him being here with her was going to wear him out since the next few weeks were to be busy for him. But seeing his smile and just being with him like this, she couldn’t help but be thankful for having him with her.

“Chloe ah.. look…” Jae Joong said as he held her hand and pointed towards the sky.

“Yehey it’s snowing” Chloe said as she held out her hand to catch the falling snowflakes in her hand, “hehehe.”

Jae Joong smiled watching how Chloe’s face seemed to just brighten the night, at that moment, he felt that if he lost everything he possessed.. he wouldn’t care because she was with him.

“Jae Joongie..” Chloe said as she turned to him, “Is something wrong?”

Jae Joong smiled and shook his head, “Nothing.. when I’m with you.. everything is perfect…”

At that moment, even though people and cars were passing by in a whirl, to them, they were the only two on the street, nothing else mattered.

“Come on Chloe ah,” Jae Joong said as he took her hand and changed subjects seeing how embarrassed the two had become, “You must be hungry lets go eat.”

The two continued to walk til they reached the ramen stall that they first met at.

“Ah Jejung kun, Kuroii chan.. long time no see.” The owner said as he greeted them and started preparing bowls, “Two specials extra meat and noodles for Jejung and for Kuroii extra broth coming right up!”

The two smiled and sat down holding hands underneath the counter. The owner quickly place two piping hot bowls in front of the couple.

“Haha and this time no fighting over who will pay, it’s on the house tonight.” Saying this he quickly took away all the spicy seasonings, “and no trying to kill each other ok? Hahaha”
After their meal the two continued walking and talking, “Jae Joongie.. this has been a wonderful night but couldn’t we have done this in Seoul?” Chloe asked as she took a bite of her crepe and then held it up to Jae Joong.

“We could have but.. it wouldn’t be the same” Jae Joong said and then bit the crepe.

“Why wouldn’t it have been the same?”

Jae Joong just continued to chew and smile pointing towards the large display screen. Chloe looked up to the screen just as music began to play and images of couples started to show.

“Wahh.. how sweet.” Chloe said as turned to Jae Joong, only to see an empty spot beside her, “Jae Joongie?”

As she looked around for him, she started to notice that the people around her were looking at her and then look back to the screen.

“What the…” when she looked back up to the screen tears began to fall, pictures of her and Jae Joong began to appear on the screen. Pictures of them when they first met, candids, pictures of them together. Chloe did not know what to say or do and then she finally realized where she was… Shibuya station. Just as she was about to pull out her phone to call him, she heard a guitar and violin and saw those who were looking at her before light candles encircling her in light.


I need you boo, (oh)
I gotta see you boo (hey)
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

“Jae Joongie?” she said hearing a faint voice singing. She started quickly turning to see if he was there.

Oh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..

“Jae Joongie!!!” Chloe called out blushing, not believing he would do such a thing. As pictures of them continued to display on the screen, a small child walked towards Chloe from the crowd holding a lily.

“Nee chan…for you..” the little girl said softly as she handed her the lily.

Chloe knelt down and accepted the lily with a smile, “Arigatou ne”

The little girl bowed and then gave Chloe a kiss on the cheek before. back into the crowd.

You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..

Chloe looked at the lily and blushed and felt a tug on her jacket. She looked down and there was another child with a lily for her and behind that child was many more.

Oh!
I'm into you,
And girl,
No one else would do,
'cause with every kiss and every hug,

“You make me fall in love…” Jae Joong sang as the crowd parted making a path for him as he continued to sing as he walked toward Chloe holding a single white lily.

And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of they life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm..

Chloe began to cry uncontrollably while smiling thinking of how much Jae Joong had to have prepared for this moment. How much he loved her.

“With you..” Jae Joong gently touched her cheek whipping away her tears.

“Jae Joongie…” Chloe said as she smiled.

But before she could finish his lips touched hers and everything she wanted to say vanished and all she could feel was the love he had for her and love she had for him. The crowd began to sing the song as the two shared their sweet kiss.

“Chloe ah.. Look at the time.. it’s Christmas.”

“Is it?”

Jae Joong handed her the lily in his hand and kissed her cheek, “Merry Christmas..”

“Thank you Jae Joongie.. umm Jae Joongie.. what are you..” Chloe whispered as she watched Jae Joong kneel down looking up at her smiling.

“Jae Joongie… I don’t understand..” Just as she was questioning his action, a small shine came from the lily he had handed her.

She looked closely and in the center of the flower was a single diamond ring, “Jae Joongie..”

He turned to the screen with tears in his eyes making Chloe do the same. It was a video of Jae Joong.

Chloe ah.. I know this makes me a coward but I really don’t know if I could be a man and say this to you without breaking down in tears. Probably right now, I’m crying next to you aren’t I? haha.. but I really love you… with all my heart. I can’t picture my life without you. You are my heart, soul.. my melody. I told you one day I would take you to Shibuya where I first bumped into you and fell head over heels for you and kiss you. Well after all we’ve been through.. tonight I was finally able to keep my promise. And I can say that every day you make me fall in love with you more..

Chloe in tears turned to Jae Joong, who looked at her with a gentle yet anxious expression.

I know for sure that I don’t want to be anyone else. I only want to be with you… Will you marry me?

The screen faded black and then turned into a live stream of where they were standing. The area seemed to go into a standstill as the entire area fell silent waiting for her reply only to be broken by people in their cars honking and cheering on Chloe to say yes that caused those on the streets to do the same.

“Chloe ah..” Jae Joong said as he took her hand, “No matter the answer, I am only complete when I’m with you.. and that will never change.”

“Ne..” Chloe said quietly.

“Huh?”

“Yes Jae Joongie.. I’ll marry you.” Chloe said nodding fast whipping her tears, “yes I’ll marry you.”

“Really?!?!” Jae Joong said as he jumped up, “You will?? YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

With that everyone burst out into cheers as Jae Joong took Chloe in her arms and swung her around and kissed her.

“Jae Joong!!!” Chloe said hitting him in the arm, “Stop it… its embarrassing.”

Jae Joong quickly stopped and smiled, “Ow.. sorry .. I just got too excited.”

“umm.. well ..” Chloe said shyly as she held the ring in front of Jae Joong, “Do I have to wear it myself?”

Smiling Jae Joong took the ring and slid it on her hand, “Perfect match..”

As the crowd continued to cheer the couple embraced as the snow began to fall again.

“You know.. all of your fans are going to hate me now Jae Joongie..”

“Are you mad Chloe ah? I’m…”

Before he could say anything, Chloe kissed him and smiled, “As long as I’m with you… it won’t matter.”

Jae Joong smiled and touched his forehead to hers, “As long as we’re together.. nothing else in the world matters..”

The end.

.·ﾟ My Only Starﾟ·.

.·ﾟ - Reasoning Behind Sweet Melodies- ﾟ·.

Thank you those who have checked out this blog and read the two short stories here. The purpose of this blog is, it is to become a place where I can post short stories/one shots that I am practicing to write [for those who know me... short stories and one shots aren't stories I'm known for ]

All the stories that are posted here will be accompanied with a song that inspired me to write it ^-^ so please enjoy the song as you read the story , it will add another effect to your reading experience I promise.

.·ﾟ Waiting ﾟ·.

Be strong ne? I know oppa is going over there with not knowing the language and unprepared but I know oppa will succeed. Don’t be disheartened by what people may say ne? Just keep doing your best and oppa will show them.

I know don’t worry I’ll be fine

I’m not done yet. Oppa remember oppa is just leaving for a while, you aren’t going forever. If oppa doesn’t come back.. I’ll go over there to find you.

Haha. Of course I’m coming back. Why wouldn’t I come back? I’m not going anywhere, this is my home unless I am not welcomed back or am forgotten. I won’t stay there unless I have to. Don’t worry.

Even if you are forgotten or need to stay, you can’t. Don’t forget that I’ll be waiting here for oppa… always. Remember that this place we’re at holds treasured memories for us and that my heart will always be waiting for you. I’ll be right here waiting for you. So no matter what happens.. promise me you’ll come back.

Yes, I promise I’ll come back.

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“Oppa, that girl is here again… I wonder who she is waiting for…” The young girl said as she zipped up her jacket moving closer to her boyfriend,” She comes everyday at the same time, looking up at the sky holding that picture.”

Her boyfriend wraps his arms around her, “I don’t know… but she must be waiting for someone really important… it’s been almost 2 years since we’ve seen her sitting there waiting… “

“Oppa..” the young girl turned and looked into her boyfriend’s eyes, “Would you make me wait for you .. like she is waiting?”

He smiled as he pulled her in closer giving her a kiss.

“I would never make you wait for me….” He said as he adjusted her beanie and reached into pocket and pulled out a ring and placed it on her finger, “I would never leave your side. I love you and want to be with you forever.”

Crying she nodded and hugged her boyfriend, “I want to be with you forever too!”

The couple embrace amongst tears of joy as they walk hand in hand past the girl they just spoke of. Quietly she sits listening to her zune as she flips through her scrapbook.

Tohoshinki slow start in as Foreign singers in Japan


As she continues to turn the pages, tears begin to fall as she touches the pictures with a mixture of pride and sadness.

Tohoshinki amazes japanse fans and skeptics with dazzling display of vocal and dancing talent

Tohoshinki steals the hearts of all Japan, selling out all concert venues

Tohoshinki breaks boundaries and records! Four #1 singles on the Oricon Charts

Tohoshinki returns to Korea after 1 year 7 month stay in Japan with anticipated upcoming release of their 4ht album Mirotic >

“When will you come back to me, oppa? ….” She closed the scrapbook and looked up to the sky as her tears streamed down mixing with the falling snow.

Oppa!! Hwaiting!! I know you will make it into SM!! Have faith in yourself!

Ne! I won’t let you down!

Mouuuuu oppa forgot my birthday… How could you!?!?!

Aegi ah.. Oppa didn’t forget.. but oppa had to wait for this.. you are the first one to get this … our debut single.. Happy birthday.

Aegi ah.. I’m sorry I haven’t had much time to be with you, but..

Oppa, I understand… I don’t mind, I know oppa would be here with me if you could…

Aegi ah…

Ne oppa?

We are getting sent overseas…

Crying, she looks down towards the handrail of the bench where they had carved their initials in that night before her love left.

12.25.2006: Wait for me

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“Sir where would you like to go?” the taxi driver said as a young man gets into his taxi.

The young man dressed in black, brushed the snow from his shoulders and replied, “Han River please ajusshi.”

“Right away.” The cab driver answered as he pulled away from the airport, “So are you on holiday in Seoul? Me.. hah this is my first time in the big city.. I’m from a small village out in the middle of no where.. it was a big shock coming here starting to work. City folk are sure different.”

The young man only smiled and then looked down at the pile of letters he had been holding.

The driver looked through his rear view window, “So… are those letters from your girlfriend? Oh sorry.. I shouldn’t intrude.”

“It’s alright ajusshi…” he said as he placed his hand on the piles of letters, “They are my unfinished letters to my girlfriend..”

“Boh? That’s a large stack? How many are there? Why didn’t you finish and send them to her? Poor girl must be waiting in front of her mail box everyday.. Aishh.. young boys these days.”

“731 letters.. one for each day I was gone.”

“731?!?!”

The young man nodded, “731 letters.. She was waiting for me.. but not anymore..”

As he looked out the window as they passed by the streets he once walked on hand in hand with her, his smile grew larger as he held onto his scarf. His sunglasses began to fog and tears began to drop.


Oppa.. saranghaeyo..


Oppa!! You are such a dork!!! Hahah lets go eat.


Oppa.. I made this for you.. especially for you! Oppa must wear it whenever it snows!! Araso? Or I will get mad.


Oppa.. do you have to go?

Oppa..I’ll be right here waiting for you. So no matter what happens.. promise me you’ll come back.

“Young man we are here.” The driver said as he stopped, “You didn’t say where you wanted to get dropped off, so I assumed it must have been at one of the spots you kids like to come to look at the river. Young man, are you alright?”

The young man smiled as he wiped his face, “Yes ajusshi.. this is fine. How much do I owe you?”

“This ride is free think of it as my Christmas present to you. Now go to your girlfriend. The poor girl must be missing you dearly.”

“Thank you ajusshi” the young man said as he got out of the cab leaving 2000 won on the seat, “Please drive carefully in the snow and merry Christmas.”

“Merry Christmas to you too.” The driver said as he nodded to the young man who bowed and began to walk away, “Nice boy.. I hope one day my little girl can find someone like him to love.”

Just as he was about to drive off two girls knocked on his window, “Yes do you need a ride? “

“Umm no ajusshi.. but we wanted to ask you, do you know where that man is going that you just dropped off? The one wearing the red scarf and sunglasses?” One of the girls said excitedly while the other girl was on the phone talking.

“He said he was going to meet someone.. why do you ask?”

“Oh my god!!! It was him!!!! Unnie said that Dong Bang Shin Ki’s flight arrived about 20 minutes ago and that each of them got into separate taxis!!!”The other girl squealed as she jumped up and down.

“Ajusshi!!! Can you tell us where he is going please?!?!?!??!”

“Wait … what is Dong Bang Shin Ki?” The driver asked.

“ONLY THE BEST MUSIC GROUP EVER!! GOSH AJUSSHI HAVE YOU BEEN LIVING UNDER A ROCK?!?!?! TELL US WHERE IS HE GOING!!!”

“Oh.. Dong Bang Shin Ki… hah hah” the driver said nervously, “ I know them.. umm he was going to go to the noodle house about 9 blocks from here.. he asked to be dropped off here to avoid a commotion.”

The two girls screamed and ran off as they began to call their friends informing them of their findings.

The driver got out of his cab and watched as the two girls ran off, “Girls these days…” then he turned toward the direction the young man actually walked, ‘’Young man hopefully that buys you enough time… that girl must be some girl.. GOOD LUCK!!!”

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As he walked closer to the spot he last kissed her, his heart began to beat rapidly What if she isn’t there… Why would she be there.. Aegi ah.. I’m sorry I made you wait so long

Taking another look at the letters, he began to regret never finishing and sending them out like the driver said.

I never let go (never I) I'm gonna make a way (I'm gonna)

Hearing this he started to run She’s here! Wait for me!

As he is running towards her, she continues to sing as she looks upon the last picture they took together where he held her tightly as if never to let go.

oh I find ever way (tonaji marayo) ne pumane yongwonhi

I never let go (never I) I'm gonna make a way (I'm gonna)
oh I find ever way (tonaji marayo) ne gyotheso yongwonhi


Aegi ah wait for me! I’m coming! Just as he reached the spot just a few feet from where his beloved was sitting, stood hunched over catching his breath with tears rolling down his face.

Nol wiheso yongwonhi

Just as the song ended, she stands up heartbroken again, holding onto the picture close the her heart, “I’ll wait for you forever oppa.. “

“Aegi ah….” He says as he stands up and smiles.

She starts crying and laughing, “I must be going insane…. “ unable to hold it in any longer she yells out towards the river, “OPPA!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!! DID YOU FORGET OUR PROMISE???? DID YOU FORGET I’M WAITING ?!?!? I’M NOT WAITING ANYMORE!!! WHERE EVER YOU ARE IN JAPAN, I’M GOING TO FIND YOU!!!”

“Aegi ah…” he whispered as he held her in his arms, “I would never forget our promise..”

“Oppa?... “ the girl says as she drops her bag still crying, “Is that really you….”

“Yes..” he says as he turns her to face him, wiping her tears away, “I’m sorry I made you wait… but I’m home now..”

“Oppa!!!!” the two embrace tightly forgetting about the time and distance apart only thinking of now.

The young man looks at his girlfriend with loving eyes, holding her closer, “I’ve missed you so much.. I’m sorry I made you wait so long.. Let me .. “

But before he could finish, the she kisses him and then pulls away a bit touching his face, “Welcome home..“

Seeing the smile on her face, he couldn’t help but smile too and nod.

“I’m home”

The End


** Writer's note: This was written so you can imagine yourself as the girl waiting for the DBSK member you love most. ^-^v

.·ﾟ When I See You Cry ﾟ·.

Part 1

Dong Wook’s Point of View

I want to give her a hug and comfort her, but she smiles. She looks as if tears should be streaming down her face creating an endless river of pain, loss, and heartache, but there are none. Looking at her I wonder, how can she give up on a person she clearly loves. Though in front of me she acts strong and emotionless, alone she sits in sadness and regret holding onto those worn out photos. Why is it they are so alike, willing to give up their happiness for the one they love? Does he even realize how lucky he is? They who would give up everything for his love and happiness… why just him?

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“Chung Hee!! Are you alright? Why are you alone?” I yelled as I entered her home to find her on the ground trying to pick up pieces of the vase that she has bumped into.

I rushed to her dropping my bags on the table and helped her up, “Don’t worry about that.. .I’ll clean it up for you. Where is Kang Hee? “

Like always Chung Hee fave me a sweet and innocent smile,” Oppa, when did you get here?”

Sometimes I really wonder why I fell in love with her in the first place… and then that smile reminds me why.

“I got here when you saw me.. oops.. I’m sorry”

I can’t believe I just said that.. how inconsiderate of me, yet this pure hearted girl giggled and felt for my face, and hit me lightly in the head, “It’s ok, so what did oppa bring me today? I hope something very tasty and expensive”
“As if I would forget to bring you snacks… come on lets go sit down.” I said as I led her to the dinner table and sat her down, pulling up a chair next to her.

“I brought you the latest edition of Harry Potter and the kiwiberry candy I promised I would.” I gently grabbed her hand placing them on the items I had brought for her and watched her face light up with delight.

“OMO.. Oppa is great!! I’ve been dying to read this.” She said as she began to scroll through the pages, popping a piece of candy in her mouth at the same time.

Should I tell her.. should I not… that someone else is here with us, watching with tears. No .. I shouldn’t because in the end this is the best for her. Though I love her and would do anything for her… even I would not be willing to make this sacrifice. No.. I can’t tell her..

“Oppa? Why did you go silent?” she asked.

“Oh it’s nothing.. I was just thinking about what Dr. Shin told me. He was able to find a donor for you.. all you have to do is consent and you can have the operation.”

Instead of being excited like I thought she would be, Chung Hee closed the book and went silent for a while, “Really… “

From the looks of the one who came with me, I knew it was my job to urge her to consent to the operation, but will I be strong enough to be able to do so?

“What is wrong? Don’t you want to be able to see again.. and not have to worry about running into things, see the sun rise and the stars at night? Or see my handsome face?”

“But.. I’m fine now.. I am getting used to seeing with my other senses, and for me to get this operation means.. someone else loses their sight isn’t it? I don’t want to be the cause of that.” She said with a weary smile as she tried to look for my hand, “Oppa, I’m fine.. really.”

“Well the donor has already consented, he is old and wants to be able to help as much as he can before he passes.” God I hate to lie, but I can’t tell her the truth, “So if you don’t accept this gesture, his dream of being able to help those in need will be in vain.”

Please.. please fall for it.

“Really? I guess then.. but please let me speak to ajushii first to thank him.” Chung Hee reluctantly said.

“You will get a chance when the operation is over ok? I’ll schedule it for two weeks from now.”

“So soon oppa…”

“It’s because he has other things to clear up first before there is no time left.” Please forgive me for lying.
“Well I trust you oppa, whatever you decide I will follow blindlessly.. hahahaha blindlessly.. well I won’t be able to say that much longer huh” Chung Hee said giggling as she patted my hand.

“I guess not… Chung Hee…” and now for me to do probably the second hardest thing.

“Hmm?”

“Do you still love him?” You may not know it but this hurts me just as much as it hurts the both of you, but I need to hear the answer.. no matter what it is, we both do.

“Why are we talking about him? He’s happy with unnie.. why did you have to bring it up? “ she said with a tremble in her voice as she pulled her hand away.

“Stop trying to avoid it.” I said as I grabbed her hand, “ I know you still love him.. why won’t you admit it.. Do you know how happy it would make me to hear that you don’t … that I still may have a chance with you? But I .. I know better that in your heart he has left no place for anyone else.”

“Stop it oppa”

“No you must hear this. Do you think that Lin is happy? That he is happy? Not knowing how you are.. that you are.. “

“Why should they ? I want them to be happy that is why I left.” She said quickly turning away.

“But what about you? You are always thinking about him.. but what about yourself? If you love him, why did you walk away? Why?”

I held her hand tight as she began to tear up, in my heart if I could.. I would just steal her away and make her the happiest I could, but I know that even though on the outside she would be happy, inside she would be miserable knowing that she wasn’t being true to her heart.

“Please.. this once.. without thinking about others, tell me what’s in your heart.” I gently wipe the tears and cup her face, I know this is the only comfort I would be able to give her even though I want to do more. I turned to look at the person who sat across from us. Though she tried her best, silent tears still fell. Why must it be this way? What is so great about him.. that the two I love would be in such a situation? Am I not good enough?

“I do..” Chung Hee said as she broke down, “With all my heart I do.. he was my first love and he will always be the only one. But I love my unnie too much.. that even the love I have for him cant compare to the love and respect I have for her.”

“Do you think she doesn’t know you still love him? Do you think she is happy right now? “ Why must it be this way.. humans are meant to fall in love and live happy lives and yet fate seemed to have decided that for us.. happiness and love would not come together.

“Please!! Please don’t tell her. If oppa still loves me please don’t tell her. I want her to be happy “ Chung Hee pleaded with me, how was I to tell her that the person she did not want to see her like this.. was sitting right in front of her, silently crying and pitying herself.

“Don’t worry I won’t. Chung Hee.. it’s getting late you should be getting to bed and I have to get going if I want to make it to Seoul before it gets dark.” I said in a slightly cheerful voice patting her on the head.

As we got up, she followed came to Chung Hee’s side and let her to her room with me close behind, “Oppa… you smell like flowers… like the ones unnie loves”

“Oh that is because I went by the flower market today.. do you want me to bring you some next time? “ I said as Chung Hee was helped into bed.

“No, but could you send some for unnie.. her birthday is coming up. I want her to be surrounded by them.” Chung Hee said as she pulled the sheets over herself. I walked up and placed my hand on our friend’s shoulder who gave me a weary smile and nodded as she patted Chung Hee on the head.

“Don’t worry about it, I’ll do as you asked ok? Just get rest.. oppa is leaving now. Goodnight.”

“Good night oppa..”

Just as we were about to leave, she turned back grabbing Kuma from its spot on the dresser and placed him in Chung Hee’s embrace, leaning over to give her a kiss on the forehead. In place of the bear on the dresser she left a dvd. Is this really how it will end? Are we really doing the right thing?

As I started my car I turned to her, “Are you sure about this?”


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Han Eul’s Point of View

I entered her apartment with oppa.. not knowing much to expect. It had been over a year since I had seen or heard from her. My heart dropped when he told me that she had lost her sight… Was is my fault? Was this all my fault?

As oppa took Chung Hee to the dining room table, I knelt down and began picking up the shattered pieces of the vase, just like the shattered pieces of our friendship. Would I be able to mend it? Would I be able to give the both of them a chance of happiness or am I just as selfish and want to pretend that nothing is wrong?

Sitting there in silence I cant help but shed tears, the dongsaeng that had loved and respected me with all her heart, sat in front of me but didn’t even know I was there. Did she really think that if she left, our bond would grow weaker? My poor dongsaeng, I can’t believe you would think so little of me.. that if you did this I would be able to find happiness.

I know that you love him, I’ve always known. I never meant for you to notice that my heart had opened up to him. Hearing you say these things makes me feel that all I had done was wrong, but now .. now I have a chance to make things all better, and this time you will be able to find happiness with the one you love. Hopefully we all find peace and I will be able to let go.

I helped you to your room and you noticed the lingering scent of the flowers I love and instead of turning in disgust, you still thought of me. How.. how can I not ..

I leave you sleeping soundly with your cherished kumagaroo, hoping your dreams are as sweet as your personality and heart. Please forgive me for hiding things from you but this is for the best. My dearest dongsaeng please don’t be sad, don’t cry anymore, but live .. truly live and love, please be happy for the both of us.

I get into oppa’s car and wipe my tears away trying my best to smile, “Of course I am sure oppa.. If they are happy, then I will be happy. You don’t need to worry about me. To have been loved by him, I am content. It is time for them to find true happiness.”

Those words came out, but in my heart it felt with each word said out loud that a part of my soul was being killed…. My happiness or yours and his… which is worth more..


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Chung Hee’s Point of view

What was that? I thought I heard unnie’s voice.. It cant be though.. how would she have found me? Just the thought that she had found me both frightens and excites me. I can’t see her but to be able to hear her voice calling my name would be enough.

“Oppa when did you get here?” I said as Dong Wook oppa helped me up from the floor. My sweet oppa, always there for me, caring. If he had not snuck into my heart.. I wonder if I would have been able to accept your heart? But that is all in the past now.. and the love I have for him will be buried forever.

“Oppa.. I’m fine really.” I say that with a smile, but am I really fine with not being able to see? Have I really gotten used to it.. No.. but at least I don’t have to pretend to not see. I know that it his wrong but, my blindness shields me from my heart, so why not let it be?

Why??!? WHY?!?! Just as I had finally been able to move a step away, you pull be back in. Yes I love him.. with all my heart I do, but what about her? She is my unnie and as much as I love him, my duty and loyalty to her comes first. I know she will make him happy because she loves him as much as I do, but refuses to say so. I know that he will love her and give her the happiness that she deserves. Why should I destroy the happiness of the two I love the most?

Odd.. earlier I didn’t notice, but now it is as if unnie is right next to me. Your embrace and the scent that surrounds you, completely remind me of her. I wonder how she is doing? If she was thinking of this dongsaeng, if she missed me as much as I missed her. In my dreams I see you and him and I wish that you may find the happiness the both of you deserve. I pray for that with all my heart, even if I am alone and sad for a while, this feeling will pass, but my love for the both of you will not, so please be happy for me.

Part 2

Han Eul’s Point of View

We’ve been together as husband and wife, but I’ve never fully let myself think that way. I love you with all my heart and soul… I really do but I was never able to say it to you and now it may be too late to. Please be happy .. the both of you..

“Mrs Kim..”

“Yes” I said as I wipe my tears and return to reality.

“Are you sure about this? He is one of the most desired men of all Korea and you want to let him go?”

“He was never mine in the first place” I said with a small smile, “It’s time to return him to where his heart always was.”

I took the papers in the envelop and got into oppa’s car. He gave me this sad look and I laughed, “This is how it is meant to be. Don’t worry about me.”

“Do you think he will really let you go?” Oppa said as he pulled up in front of our apartment.

I got out and smiled leaning against the window, “ Oppa even if he doesn’t I’ve already made up my mind.. just make sure to come pick me up tomorrow early ok? We can’t keep them waiting...they’ve waited long enough”

I get into the elevator by and as the floor numbers increase, my heart gets heavier. I think of all the memories… though I never let myself completely open my heart to him… he still crept in and shattered all my walls. His laugh, his smile, his eyes, everything about him, I couldn’t help it. They day he asked me I was torn, follow my heart or not. Now I regret not saying I love you to him. His goofy smile, his child like heart… no one will be able to take these memories from me, but are they worth holding onto when I’ve already decided?

My mind says I’m doing the right thing, but why am I crying? As the doors open I turn around to exit and he’s standing there with open arms and caring eyes. I try to smile but can’t, why won’t the tears stop.. I have to be strong.

“Han Eul what is wrong?” he says as he hugs me and wipes my tears away, “This isn’t like you.. what happened to my forever strong wife?”

What am I to say to him? That in a few hours I wont be his wife anymore? No.. he can’t know.. not yet.

“It’s nothing, I just started crying. “ I said as I gave him a hug, “I can’t seem to stop my tears. I look funny don’t I .. tears from one eye…”

With a pouty face he kisses me, “Why don’t you ever cry like that about me? I’m so jealous.. what are you crying about? What? What? “ as he began to stomp around with his arms crossed.

Do you know that you are the first person I’ve ever cried over? Do you know how much I love you? Seeing him like this I can’t help but laugh. At the same time cry even more.

“What’s wrong? When I see you cry, it makes me feel uneasy?” Jae Joong said as he got up and led me to the couch in the living room.

“It’s nothing.. maybe allergies .. or maybe it’s because I’m finally falling in love with you ..” I tried to play it off, hopefully he believes me .Like always when I sit on the couch he jumps on to it and does a weird cheer and lays his head in my lap looking up at me with a smile and such loving eyes.

“I guess since you are only allergic to kamo .. it must be that your are finally going to admit to being in love me with huh?” He closed his eyes and prepped for a shock but I just looked at him.

I touched his face gently as a tear fell on his cheek, his eyes opened staring straight into mine. His hand touched my face and wiped away tears from my eye, “What’s wrong?”

I touched his hand and held it, with a smile I said what I should have said long ago, “Nothing… I just want stay like this forever.. with the one I love.”

“The one you love?” he said still resting his head in my lap while one hand caressing my face, the other holding on to my other hand.

“I love you.. with all my heart I do” I said as I pulled his hand over my heart, “ No matter what happens, I will always love you.” Tonight.. just for tonight, I’ll follow my heart and seek comfort in his warm embrace for the first and last time.

I wake up in his embrace, such a beautiful sleeping face… so peaceful.. please be happy, please don’t cry, please live with joy.. that is my only wish. Live with her in happiness and love, make this wish for me become reality and I’ll have no regrets.

I get up and go shower, the water hitting my face mixing in with my tears.. let him see me one last time with a smile on my face.. no more tears.. part with a smile.. Han Eul be strong.. one last time for his sake and hers.

I go to the kitchen to make his favorite foods and bring it into our bedroom.. hahaha when has this room been called our room? Since we’ve been married, we’ve always used separate rooms from this one. Living together but not really living together, that’s how it’s been.

Just like clock work, my sweet pabo pretty boy, with only the smell of food begins to open his eyes, but quickly turns over to hug a person that isn’t there, “eh?? “ he turns around searching to find me sitting at the edge of the bed with the tray of food.

“Hmm.. so that was what I was smelling in my sleep..” Jae Joong said as he sat up, stretched and moved toward me, sitting at my side resting his head on my shoulder, “hmm.. smells so good”

“Ok ok… if you go take a shower, the quicker you can eat your food” I said as I nudged him.

He looked at me with bright eyes and a smirk, “Who said I was talking about the food”, without warning he stole a kiss. Would he have been like this every morning? Jae Joong.. why did it have to be you?

I watched him as he began to pick at the food on the tray… I wish it could be like this from now on.

“Ah… there..” Jae Joong said as he picked the gardenia from the vase and put it in my hair, his eyes so bright and his smile so sweet, I almost want to never let go. He kissed the flower he had placed in my hair and lowered his face to meet mine, I couldn’t help but cry.

He laughed wiping the tear away, “You know.. you’ve never looked so beautiful. Even with the tears, you’ve never looked so beautiful. But why is my wife crying so much… is it because you’re so happy? If so..when I see you cry.. I will remember this day, forever.”

“I… “ I started to say, but before I could say anything his phone rang, he was late to the airport. Today he and his brothers were leaving for Japan.. to pursue their dreams of becoming the best in Asia. I help him pack and dress.. he smiles seeing me act like this.

“Wow.. so this is how it feels to have a cutie wife. Ah … I’m in heaven”

Just as he is about to leave, I pull out the papers and ask him to sign them.

“What is this?” he asks as he inhales his food.

“Nothing really.. I’m thinking about opening a shop of my own, but I want it to be under both our names.. so can you sign it before you leave?”

“hmmm ok.. anything for my wife.” Jae Joong quickly signed it without giving it a glance, “I trust you.. just do what you think is best. Aiishh.. I’m late!!!!” he rushes out the door and out of my life, but suddenly comes back in, “I forgot one thing..” giving me a kiss on the lips, “I’ll come straight home when it’s over ok?”

I smile, “Don’t worry.. the one that you love the most will be here waiting..go.. before you miss the flight”

He hugs me, “Are you sure you don’t want to go with me? I don’t want you to be alone..”

“I’ll never be alone..” I said as I put his hand on my heart, “Because you will always be in here… now go.. it is only a month.. when you come back.. things will be the way they ought to be.”

He gave me one last kiss and left. I look out the window and watch for the final time him waving to me before driving off. Goodbye my pabo pretty boy… please don’t cry…

I answer my phone, “Oppa.. I’m ready… I’ll head down right now.” and hang up the phone. I grab my suitcase from the closet and the pictures I had pulled out, in its place leaving a dvd. I take one last look as the elevator doors close.. I wish you all the happiness in the world.. and even if I’m not here to share in your joys and sadness, you will always be in my heart and on my thoughts and my eyes will always be focused on you.

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Jae Joong’s Point of View

Is this fair to her? Is this fair to any of us. I love her.. I know I do but I can’t stop thinking about Chung Hee. Over the years I’ve grown to love Han Eul.. she has been my support when I was down.. when I needed comfort she would always be here for me to run to. I tell her I love her, yet she still puts up barriers so we can’t get closer. Can we even be considered husband and wife? I want us to be because Chung Hee wants us to be happy.. but is that even a good enough reason.. because of Chung Hee.. Is it because of Chung Hee or was Han Eul always the one in my heart?

I hear the elevator bell and run to greet her finally realizing what is in my heart only to see her crying.. Why is she crying? Is it because of me? Why wont she tell me what is going on in her mind, in her heart? I want to be able to hold her like she has held me. Please let me be the one you depend on ..

“Han Eul what is wrong?” I say to her as I wipe the tears from her right eye and embrace her, “This isn’t like you.. what happened to my forever strong wife?”

She avoids the question again like she always does.. why does she hide herself from me? Will me being the goofy child I am cheer her up?

She laughed!! But why is she still crying? As I lead her into our living room and rest my head in her lap, I can’t help but have a feeling that she won’t be with me forever like we promised. NO.. I’m just thinking too much, I know she loves me even if she doesn’t say it.

Why isn’t she pushing me away like always? A tear.. I open my eyes and look at her, she has an expression on her face I’ve never seen before… such sadness… What is wrong? Why won’t you tell me?

“Nothing… I just want stay like this forever.. with the one I love.”

I can’t believe she finally said those words. My heart is beating so hard and fast. You are finally opening your heart to me.. I swear that I will love you and cherish you forever, every kiss , every hug every moment of your life.

The sun is rising and the light catches Han Eul’s face. I know this sounds cheesy but I swore an angel was asleep beside me. How come I’ve never seen you like this before Han Eul? Is it because you were hiding yourself from me? Or is it because I finally know who is in my heart? I touch her hair and lean over for a kiss. Gardenia… the scent that always is wrapped around her, such a sweet and gentle smell. Why did it take me so long to see you?

As she begins to wake I pretend to be asleep.. kiss me .. kiss me, just this once be the one to kiss me first. Why is she crying again? Should I “wake up” or should I not?

She goes to the kitchen and I have the sudden urge to go surprise her in the kitchen. So this is what it feels like to be in love and married? I hope that we can always be like this, with a lovely wife and a happy home.

Han Eul you are too cute… my wife with her innocence… makes me want to hold you in my arms forever. Those eyes.. why do they look so different today, just like last night.. so full of love but also sadness. Every time I see a tear shed, it makes me want to hold you even closer.. don’t you know that? Promise me that you will only cry for me?

Han Eul, I am sorry I’ve never noticed all the little things you’ve done for me. I watch you here and I wonder why I never saw what was right in front of me.

“Don’t worry.. the one that you love the most will be here waiting..go.. before you miss the flight” the look you had when you said that, brings uneasiness. Can’t you just go with me? Now that I’ve found out who’s really in my heart, can’t we always be together?

As I watch her wave to me as the elevator door closes, I wonder what you meant by things being the way they are meant to be? Why are you speaking as if our story has ended? I can’t shake this feeling from my mind.

I look up to our apartment like I always do before I leave, but instead of you throwing something at me or yelling you stand there silent and waving goodbye to me. Why do I feel like I will never see you again? Please let it be just me over examining things, now that I see you are in love with me as much as I am with you. The love in your eyes, in your tears, I don’t want anything to happen. One month seems long, but wait for me ok? Like you always have, but this time when I come home I’ll be the man you deserve giving you the love and care that I should have given you the day I asked you to be the one to spend my life with. I’ve always seen it in your eyes, but my heart until last night was confused, mixing up friendship and love. Now..Now I am ready to promise you that I will love you forever with everything I am... but why does it seem that I lost everything?

Part 3

Chung Hee’s Point of View

“Nurse..” I said I get up from my bed.

“Yes Miss Lim?” the said as I could hear her walk towards me and set something down, “Is there something wrong? Your operation will be occurring in less than 20 minutes. I have to give you a sedative and then take you to the operating room.”

“Before you do, can you tell me where my oppa is? And where is the ajjushi is that is donating his eyes to me?” I said as I searched to meet with her hands, “ Unnie.. I really want to thank him.”

But before she could say anything a warm hand touched my shoulder.. it seemed so familiar, “ Who is this?”

There was an odd silence, why though?

“Miss Lim, your donor is here.” The nurse said sadly. Why does she sound sad? Isn’t she suppose to be happy?

“Ajushi…” I said as I tried to touch his hand, but he quickly moved it away, “Ajusshi? Where are you? “

“Oh.. he is going to the door to get you something, now Miss Lim, I am going to inject you with the sedative, it should take effect almost instantly.”

“Wait..Ouch..” the nurse quickly shot the medicine into me and just like she said, I began to feel the affects. Is this a dream? ..What is this scent.. it is so familiar..

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Dong Wook’s Point of View[i]

I sit here looking at her as she signs the paperwork, would I be as strong as she is right now? Would I give a part of me for the ones I love without any regrets? She tells them not to say anything to Chung Hee just as she made me swear when I was driving her to the hospital.

We get up and she asks if I could take her to a flower shop near by and I agree. When we are in the elevator I look at her as she smiles, “Oppa don’t worry.. this is the right thing to do”. I try to smile, but how can I, when I see that a tear is streaming from the side of her face she tries to hide. Is this what true love is?

“Are you ready? Only an hour left before the operation?” I say as I hold the door open for her, the scent of gardenias surrounds me, but not from the flowers, but from her. She walks slowly around looking at the flowers in the shop, examining each one. Is she regretting her choice now?

Should I run to her and comfort her? Who is it that I love? Her or Chung Hee? Am I mixing friendship for love? Why can’t they see me like they see him?

“Are you alright?” I say catching her in my arms as she stumbles, “Are you sure you can go through with this?”

Like always she smiles and says that she’s fine. How can she be fine? I know there is something she is hiding from me, but what is it? She buys the flowers and we head back just as her phone rings. Why won’t you answer it Han Eul? Is it him? Should I ask her?

We enter Chung Hee’s room and I watch from a far.. which one is more in love.. which one is foolish.. or is it me that is the foolish one in love? She comes to me and gets the flowers I am holding as Chung Hee falls asleep.

Is this all really necessary ? Why must there be two people in pain? Can’t we all be happy?

I walk along side Han Eul’s bed as they are pushing her towards the operating room, watching her as the sedative slowly took effect.

“Oppa, please don’t tell her, she won’t be happy if she finds out. Promise me.” Han Eul says as she gently holds my arm. Why is it now that you hold me gently? If you had opened your heart to me before, we would have never ended like this.. Why am I blaming you? I wonder, he is the one to blame… no.. it is me. I am the only one to blame for being too slow and not knowing how I felt.

“I promise I won’t.” were the last words I said before she closed her eyes and was taken in… I love you… was what I really wanted to say.. will I get a chance… I do not know.. hah I think I am the greatest fool.


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[i]Han Eul’s Point of View

“Are you sure you want to do this Mrs. Kim?” the doctor said as he noticed a tear fall from my eye.

“It’s Miss actually and yes…. It is time to repay old debts.” I said as I smiled and handed him the paper work and bowed.
One last time I want to see my darling dongsaeng… you’ve given up so much for me .. it is time for me to repay you. Oppa and I stop at a flower shop and buy her some gardenias…hmm these will be nice when she can see again. Jae Joong… I still remember how he so lovingly placed a gardenia in my hair… no I must stop.. this is the right thing to do.. Han Eul be strong!!

She seems happy.. my poor little sister.. I can’t even imagine how hard it must have been for you.. before knew.. she grabbed my arm.. what am I to do? She can’t know … I give the nurse a look, begging her with my eyes to please not say anything. She nodded as I backed away from Chung Hee’s reach.

I stand next to her bed as she falls asleep, catching the tears before they fall on her face.. Chung Hee be strong for us ok? Be happy… that is all unnie wants ok?

“Oppa, please don’t tell her, she won’t be happy if she finds out. Promise me.” I plead with Oppa as they lead me to the operating room… Please say yes.. I don’t want anyone else to cry. I am slowly losing consciousness… but why am I still thinking about him… he isn’t mine anymore… was he ever mine? For that one night he was… my Jae Joong..

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Jae Joong’s Point of View

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What?!? … Han Eul … is everything ok? What is going on … why is my heart so uneasy? Ever since I left our apartment that day.. Why haven’t you called me .. emailed … anything? If only I could drop everything and rush home to embrace you in my arms and surround myself with that sweet smell that brings comfort to my heart. It has been 3 months now since I came to Japan to work.. and being apart for so long.. made me realize how much I love you.

“Hyung…. Chung Hee… she is undergoing an eye transplant .. she will be able to see soon…” Changmin said as he read an email from Sang Mi. What?!?! How did she become blind.. Why didn’t she call me and tell me? Why? All these questions raced in my mind but then I realized.. she knew my feelings best of all…

I hope she all goes well for her.. though my feelings for her have changed from love to friendship there will always be a special place in my heart for her. She will always be my teddybear..

“Hyung you have a letter from Hannie nuna” Junsu said as he brought in the mail.

“Give me that!!!” I yelled as I jumped over the couch and landed on him grabbing the large envelope.

“Hahahah some one misses his wife.” Yoochun said taunting me and he tried to snatch it away from me.

I glared at him and went to the table … such a large envelope I wonder what it may be? Pages of letters saying how much she misses me and wants me home? I open the envelope excitedly and look. “What….” The only word I could say as my heart fell into pieces and tears began to well up.

“Hyung?!?! When did you divorce Hannie Nuna?!?!?!” Changmin screamed out as the others rushed over to look at the divorce document..

“I didn’t…..”

A card fell out.. I’m sorry… Saranghaeyo…. Goodbye…

Is this why you haven’t called me back? Or even sent an email? What did I do wrong… Was it because I never said I love you? It cant be.. because we were so much in love and understood each other before I left… before I left.. .. I looked at the paper..


“What is this? “


“Nothing really.. I’m thinking about opening a shop of my own, but I want it to be under both our names.. so can you sign it before you leave?”

“hmmm ok.. anything for my wife.”

Is that what you had me sign? Why ?!?!?!? WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7 Years Later

Hmmm the last memory of her… but I guess now it is over… It has been seven years… 7 years of wondering why… if it was me … where she went.. it is time to just let go.

ding dong

Hmm I guess the buyer is here now.. as I take one last look around I can’t help but feel torn… part of me wants to leave and never look back.. another part wants to lay in bed and wait for her to come into the room and give a hug and kiss.

“Hello… is anyone there?” A little voice said as the door opened.

“Who may I know is asking?” I said as I headed toward the front door… must be the person interested in buying the condo. Eh? It’s a child?

“Uncle are you the realtor?” the little boy said as another gentleman bowed to him as he shut the door behind the boy.

“Are you the one purchasing the condo?” I questioned as I looked on the child who had a sparkle in his eye as he surveyed the condo. Why does he seem so familiar?

But before he could reply, the young boy took off to investigate the house and the older gentleman who turned out to be the boy’s mother’s assistant began to talk. Hmm so his name is Young Jae…

Han Eul… let’s have a baby!!

Yah!! Why would I have a baby with you?

Because I’m cute? Hahah what should we name the baby if it’s a girl and what if it’s a boy.

One you are not cute and who said I would have a baby with you huh?

Please just go along with me , Han Eul…

Ok ok .. well if .. IF we ever have kids.. Young Lin for a girl and umm.. Young Jae if it was a boy

“Sir.. are you alright? “ The gentleman asked me as he placed his suitcase on the coffee table.

“I am sorry.. it’s just..” no it can’t be.. I smile, “So everything is ready for his family to move in now” I say as I hand the man the lease. He bows and takes it from my hand… says that it will be only Young Jae and his mother while they are in the country. So… he isn’t from Korea.. but it is a Korean name.. just him and his mother…

I look at him as he runs around looking at every inch of the condo, I feel this warm as if a part of me had returned.

“Please excuse me…” the man said as he picked up his phone and headed out of the condo.

I know I should leave since the new tenants are here but.. there is something about Young Jae that draws me to him.

“Young Jae” I call to him with a smile on my face as he turns and smiles running towards me, leaping into my arms. Hmm… is this how having a child feels?

“Hai desu heh heh” He replies as he giggles looking at me with earnest eyes.

“So do you like your new home?”

“Yes very much. Young Jae has picked out which room is okaasan’s and mine already and which is for Uncle Sevie when he comes to visit.”

“Hmm which one is your room?”

And before I could say anything else, he jumped out of my arms, took my hand and led me to our room.

“This one. Okaasan will love this room, it’s a pretty color, her favorite and everyday Young Jae can put fresh gardenia near our bed and on this table” Young Jae said as he let go of my hand and mimicked him placing a bowl of flowers on the small desk near the window, turning to me and smiling.

Han Eul… just like Han Eul did every morning… I would wake up to the sweet smell of gardenia and her smile..
“Uncle are you ok?” Young Jae asked as he shook my hand a bit looking up at me. Why.. why is this little boy bringing back such bittersweet memories… no it isn’t him .. it is this place.. I look down at him and smile.

“Yes. I am glad you like your new home Young Jae.. This place holds very many memories for uncle and I hope you and your mother will enjoy living here.”

Young Jae smiles, “ Hai. Anywhere with okaasan is heaven for Young Jae. Actually Young Jae was surprised Okaasan said we were coming here… Uncle Sevie didn’t like the idea but okaasan said that Korea is a part of me. So here we are …. Ooh big bouncy bed hahaha”

Mrs. Jae Joong welcome to your new home.

Don’t call me that!!!

Why not? You are my wife.. can your husband get a kiss?

Eww no… ooh big bouncy bed hahahah

“I am sorry to intrude but young master your mother is here to pick you up.” The gentleman said to Young Jae and then turned to me, “No if you would hand over the keys our transaction will be complete.”

“Yes of course.” I reached for the key in my pocket and handed it over to him… the last attachment to her .. now gone.

“Young master please your mother is waiting in the car.” The gentleman said sternly, causing Young Jae to stop and pout then hop off the bed, running to me to give me a hug.

“I don’t know why but… Young Jae just wants to give uncle a hug..” the sweet child said as he hugged me as if we were kin. Looking at him.. I wonder would my son have been this cheerful and attached to me?

I can’t help but kneel down and hug him back, “Hey.. don’t cry.. it’s not as if we won’t see each other again… remember.. I know where you live hahah…”

Odd.. he cries the same way as her.. only from one eye.. no I’m just hallucinating … god.. I need to leave now.., “ now wipe your tears.. you shouldn’t cry in front of others.”

Young Jae quickly smiled and wiped his face, “Uncle says the same thing as okaasan.. well then until we meet again” and with one last hug Young Jae pulled back and headed toward the elevator.

I look around one last time as the sun begins to set… a somber atmosphere as I finally close this part of my life.. but why is it that Young Jae’s image kept overlapping with memories of Han Eul.. I look out the window to see Young Jae wave at me before getting into the car.

Though I had told Young Jae I would come and visit him..in my heart.. I don’t want to come back to this place. I’m sorry I lied Young Jae but uncle can’t come back here anymore.. but I do hope we get to see each other again.
“Oh sir you are still here.” The gentleman said as he stood near the door and bowed.

I bowed back, “Is there a problem?”

“No, but the young master seemed to have dropped a very important item.. Oh it seems to be caught on your jacket sir.”

“Oh..” I look down and a little gold chain was dangling from my jacket.. he must have gotten it caught on me when we hugged. Seems like a normal necklace but … why does he have this… my hands tremble as I look at the ring and locket… this can’t be… I read the inscription in the ring:

To my Han Eul, I give you my heart- Jae Joong

“Sir are you alright?” the gentleman asks, “If I can get that from you I will be on my way..”

“Please.. just let me..” before I could finish the sentence tears fall when I opened the locket to reveal a picture of my Han Eul hugging Young Jae. This must mean… I run quickly to the window to realize they had disappeared from my life again.

“Sir?”

Him!! He must know where they are. I run up to him and grab him, “Where is Young Jae and his mother going?!?! Tell me!!!”

“I can’t sir…”

“Why not?!?!?!”

“Because I do not know.. Ms. Kim only came to Korea for the opening of the school and to purchase this condo.. I am unaware to where Ms. Kim and the young master will be traveling next.”

“School? “ I am this close to shaking him.. he is not telling me everything.. Han Eul where are you !!!

“A school for the blind sir… Ms. Kim runs schools throughout Japan and Korea for the blind.”

“The blind?” why the blind… but then it all became clear… when Chung Hee walked in.

“Jae Joong..” Chung Hee said as she smile then turned and bowed to the assistant who quickly snatched the necklace from me and rushed out, “Are you ready? We are going to miss the appointment with the doctor… I’m so nervous… if it is a girl can we name her Younglin?”

I didn’t understand the letter you left me seven years ago but now.. it’s all clear.

Jae Joong,

I am sorry, but it is time for me to return you to who you really belong to. Please be happy and don’t cry. Be happy with Chung Hee like you two were meant to be. She has gone through so much, it is time for her to find happiness. You can think of me as heartless … a witch… cold… but please don’t cry. I’m leaving with you the most precious things in my life in your care. Even if you hate me later on.. please take care of them. I’ll always be watching over you two.

Han Eul

WHY?!?!?! WHY ARE YOU THE ONLY ONE WHO HAD TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING??!??!? I fall the to floor crying … why … why did you have to do all of this… why?

“Jae Joong… are you ok?” Chung Hee said as she rushed over to me, hugging me, “ Why are you crying? You know it hurts me when I see you cry… When you cry.. I cry too...”


The End