Tuesday, December 23, 2008

.·゚ With You ゚·.

“Jae Joong ah.. where are you taking me? Can’t I take off my blindfold?” Chloe said as she reached for the blindfold.

Before she could slide the black blindfold down Jae Joong gently stopped her hand and moved it away giving a kiss on it, “It’s a surprise. I promised you something special for Christmas.. aegi yah can you just wait … for me?”

Blushing she tried to pull her hand away, “Don’t call me aegi yah.. you know I don’t like that!” she mumbles, “I’m your noona remember..”

With a laugh and smile, Jae Joong took her into his arms, “ But for tonight.. can you be my aegi yah… Let me take care of you.. ne? ”

“…” Chloe unable to think of a rebuttal nodded and sank into the warmth of his arms, “When can I take my blindfold off Jae Joongie..”

“ah we’re here.” Jae Joong said as he led Chloe to the door and led her down finally un blindfolding her, “How does Christmas eve in Japan sound?”

“Eh?” Chloe said as she rubbed her eyes and put on her glasses, “OMO… What? Jae Joongie, are you kidding me?”

With a smile he walked to Chloe, fixing her scarf and put on some mittens on her hand, “iie, nippon he no kangei, kuroii chan”

“You are always full of unexpected things Jae Joongie..” Chloe said as she blushed and poked him in his side.

“hahah But isn’t that why you fell for me in the first place?” Jae Joong said as he took her hand and started running, “I’m starving. let’s go get some ramen!!”

“But… aren’t we going to take a car? Aren’t you afraid we’re going to get mauled by your fans??”

“Today.. I’m just Kim Jae Joong on a date with my beautiful girlfriend.” Jae Joong said as he continued to run, holding Chloe’s hand, but stopped and looked at her pouting, “Unless you would rather get driven around in a big fancy car and go to a fancy restaurant.. we can do that too.”

Cupping his face she smiled and planted a kiss on his lips, “I would want nothing more than to be with you. Nothing else matters.”

“When I’m with you.. I don’t need money or fancy cars.. I just need you…”

As the two looked deep into one another’s eyes, both began to fall for each other more so than before, reminiscing about the last 5 years they’ve been together.
“I love you Chloe ah..” Jae Joong said as he slowly leaned towards her.

Nervously, Chloe turned away red and coughed, “Umm… Jae Joongie.. I’m hungry now… let’s go get some ramen at a street stall and umm some takoyaki too.”

“Great minds think alike.” He wrapped his arm around Chloe and smiled, “Let’s go.”

As the two walked down the streets looking at the lights and many people on the streets, they laugh and play around just like a normal couple. Something they haven’t been able to do as of late because of Jae Joong’s busy schedule. Chloe knew him being here with her was going to wear him out since the next few weeks were to be busy for him. But seeing his smile and just being with him like this, she couldn’t help but be thankful for having him with her.

“Chloe ah.. look…” Jae Joong said as he held her hand and pointed towards the sky.

“Yehey it’s snowing” Chloe said as she held out her hand to catch the falling snowflakes in her hand, “hehehe.”

Jae Joong smiled watching how Chloe’s face seemed to just brighten the night, at that moment, he felt that if he lost everything he possessed.. he wouldn’t care because she was with him.

“Jae Joongie..” Chloe said as she turned to him, “Is something wrong?”

Jae Joong smiled and shook his head, “Nothing.. when I’m with you.. everything is perfect…”

At that moment, even though people and cars were passing by in a whirl, to them, they were the only two on the street, nothing else mattered.

“Come on Chloe ah,” Jae Joong said as he took her hand and changed subjects seeing how embarrassed the two had become, “You must be hungry lets go eat.”

The two continued to walk til they reached the ramen stall that they first met at.

“Ah Jejung kun, Kuroii chan.. long time no see.” The owner said as he greeted them and started preparing bowls, “Two specials extra meat and noodles for Jejung and for Kuroii extra broth coming right up!”

The two smiled and sat down holding hands underneath the counter. The owner quickly place two piping hot bowls in front of the couple.

“Haha and this time no fighting over who will pay, it’s on the house tonight.” Saying this he quickly took away all the spicy seasonings, “and no trying to kill each other ok? Hahaha”
After their meal the two continued walking and talking, “Jae Joongie.. this has been a wonderful night but couldn’t we have done this in Seoul?” Chloe asked as she took a bite of her crepe and then held it up to Jae Joong.

“We could have but.. it wouldn’t be the same” Jae Joong said and then bit the crepe.

“Why wouldn’t it have been the same?”

Jae Joong just continued to chew and smile pointing towards the large display screen. Chloe looked up to the screen just as music began to play and images of couples started to show.

“Wahh.. how sweet.” Chloe said as turned to Jae Joong, only to see an empty spot beside her, “Jae Joongie?”

As she looked around for him, she started to notice that the people around her were looking at her and then look back to the screen.

“What the…” when she looked back up to the screen tears began to fall, pictures of her and Jae Joong began to appear on the screen. Pictures of them when they first met, candids, pictures of them together. Chloe did not know what to say or do and then she finally realized where she was… Shibuya station. Just as she was about to pull out her phone to call him, she heard a guitar and violin and saw those who were looking at her before light candles encircling her in light.


I need you boo, (oh)
I gotta see you boo (hey)
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

“Jae Joongie?” she said hearing a faint voice singing. She started quickly turning to see if he was there.

Oh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..

“Jae Joongie!!!” Chloe called out blushing, not believing he would do such a thing. As pictures of them continued to display on the screen, a small child walked towards Chloe from the crowd holding a lily.

“Nee chan…for you..” the little girl said softly as she handed her the lily.

Chloe knelt down and accepted the lily with a smile, “Arigatou ne”

The little girl bowed and then gave Chloe a kiss on the cheek before. back into the crowd.

You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..

Chloe looked at the lily and blushed and felt a tug on her jacket. She looked down and there was another child with a lily for her and behind that child was many more.

Oh!
I'm into you,
And girl,
No one else would do,
'cause with every kiss and every hug,

“You make me fall in love…” Jae Joong sang as the crowd parted making a path for him as he continued to sing as he walked toward Chloe holding a single white lily.

And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of they life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm..

Chloe began to cry uncontrollably while smiling thinking of how much Jae Joong had to have prepared for this moment. How much he loved her.

“With you..” Jae Joong gently touched her cheek whipping away her tears.

“Jae Joongie…” Chloe said as she smiled.

But before she could finish his lips touched hers and everything she wanted to say vanished and all she could feel was the love he had for her and love she had for him. The crowd began to sing the song as the two shared their sweet kiss.

“Chloe ah.. Look at the time.. it’s Christmas.”

“Is it?”

Jae Joong handed her the lily in his hand and kissed her cheek, “Merry Christmas..”

“Thank you Jae Joongie.. umm Jae Joongie.. what are you..” Chloe whispered as she watched Jae Joong kneel down looking up at her smiling.

“Jae Joongie… I don’t understand..” Just as she was questioning his action, a small shine came from the lily he had handed her.

She looked closely and in the center of the flower was a single diamond ring, “Jae Joongie..”

He turned to the screen with tears in his eyes making Chloe do the same. It was a video of Jae Joong.

Chloe ah.. I know this makes me a coward but I really don’t know if I could be a man and say this to you without breaking down in tears. Probably right now, I’m crying next to you aren’t I? haha.. but I really love you… with all my heart. I can’t picture my life without you. You are my heart, soul.. my melody. I told you one day I would take you to Shibuya where I first bumped into you and fell head over heels for you and kiss you. Well after all we’ve been through.. tonight I was finally able to keep my promise. And I can say that every day you make me fall in love with you more..

Chloe in tears turned to Jae Joong, who looked at her with a gentle yet anxious expression.

I know for sure that I don’t want to be anyone else. I only want to be with you… Will you marry me?

The screen faded black and then turned into a live stream of where they were standing. The area seemed to go into a standstill as the entire area fell silent waiting for her reply only to be broken by people in their cars honking and cheering on Chloe to say yes that caused those on the streets to do the same.

“Chloe ah..” Jae Joong said as he took her hand, “No matter the answer, I am only complete when I’m with you.. and that will never change.”

“Ne..” Chloe said quietly.

“Huh?”

“Yes Jae Joongie.. I’ll marry you.” Chloe said nodding fast whipping her tears, “yes I’ll marry you.”

“Really?!?!” Jae Joong said as he jumped up, “You will?? YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

With that everyone burst out into cheers as Jae Joong took Chloe in her arms and swung her around and kissed her.

“Jae Joong!!!” Chloe said hitting him in the arm, “Stop it… its embarrassing.”

Jae Joong quickly stopped and smiled, “Ow.. sorry .. I just got too excited.”

“umm.. well ..” Chloe said shyly as she held the ring in front of Jae Joong, “Do I have to wear it myself?”

Smiling Jae Joong took the ring and slid it on her hand, “Perfect match..”

As the crowd continued to cheer the couple embraced as the snow began to fall again.

“You know.. all of your fans are going to hate me now Jae Joongie..”

“Are you mad Chloe ah? I’m…”

Before he could say anything, Chloe kissed him and smiled, “As long as I’m with you… it won’t matter.”

Jae Joong smiled and touched his forehead to hers, “As long as we’re together.. nothing else in the world matters..”

The end.


Monday, December 1, 2008

.·゚ My Only Star゚·.




Hmm snow is falling.. winter must be here… It’s going to be a cold one too, but at least I have you to keep me warm.




What’s wrong?


Let’s break up..


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“It’s been months already, why are you still holding on to her picture?” one of my bandmates said as he pat me on the shoulder, but I couldn’t answer his question. Why am I holding on to your picture still? Weren’t you the one that broke up with me?


“Just let him be… You know how much it hurts to lose the person you love?” another stepped in to defend me, “It takes time for those feelings to pass. He’ll be fine, it will all get better in time.”


“Thanks.” I smiled and nodded, “I’m fine, I guess it is time to get rid of this …”


Saying that I take one last look at this picture of us smiling together…its been 3 months since we parted ways… Since there is no more us.. it is time for me to let you go huh? I toss our picture into the trash as my bandmates come to cheer me up.


“Don’t worry.. we’re here for you.”


“Yeah .. It’s her loss since she doesn’t know what she has given up.”


“Thanks guys.. but I’m ok no need to cheer me up. Let’s get ready for the performance ok? Everyone gather lets cheer!” I smile and call out to everyone, I know this isn’t the time to be sad. It is time to move on, “Ok everyone let’s have a great performance tonight. Toho Toho Toho shinki Fighto!!!”


We all jump and cheer and break up to get ready, but why is it that my heart feels like its turned to stone? Can it really be that easy to put aside my feelings like you did?



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Here.. I got you this..


Thank you … but why?


Because… I love you


Oh look the first snow of winter … isn’t it beautiful?


Not as beautiful as you though..


Let’s go purikura!!!



Hahaha ok lets go


Ummm….


Hehehe now we are even.. you stole my heart.. I stole a kiss.. lalala time to draw.. I’ll draw a heart around us and put blush on your cheeks..


Why?!?! I’m not blushing !!


Sure…


So did you watch us on tv?


Of course I did teehee I’m your biggest fan. I have posters and pictures of you all over my room.


Really… can I see?


NO!! A girl’s room is private… and umm was that wink to the camera for me?


What if I say it was?


….


Hahah are you blushing?


No I am not?!?!? It’s just .. ummm what was that kiss for..


Just for being you …


Let’s break up..


Why? Is there something wrong? Is it because I can’t go out in public with you or ..


Stop it… It’s not any of that.. I .. it doesn’t matter.. we’re in two different worlds… goodbye..


Wait.. Don’t leave me..



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“Unnie… you’re putting up all your Dong Bang Shin Ki posters again? I thought you hated them and that was the reason why you took them down 3 months ago..” My sister said as she watches me put up your poster once again.


“I never hated them… I just needed some time away from them, but it’s ok now.” I said as I smile wearily at your face. Have you forgotten me yet? I thought if I got rid of everything that reminded me of you.. it would be easier, but it wasn’t . No matter how much I tried to hide… you always seemed to find me.


It’s ok now , even though my heart still aches for you, I’ll be fine. I’ll keep on smiling, just like you said I always should. Are you smiling too? Remember you promised me that no matter what happens you’ll always stay strong and keep smiling.


“Unnie! If you aren’t anti Dong Bang Shinki then come watch Kohaku with me. Kyahh I’m so excited and proud of them for finally being recognized and invited to perform. There are rumors that instead of Thousand Years Love Song that they will sing Love in the Ice! I hope they sing Love in the Ice… come on unnie they are going to be on any minute.”



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Smile!!!


Eh why?


Because your smile brightens up my life.


You are so cheesy you know that hahaha…


But.. look it made you smile … wahhh my life is content now


You dork!


I may be a dork.. but can you promise me that you will always smile? Even in times get rough?


Ok I promise to smile.. as long as you promise to keep smiling to ok?


Deal! Let’s pinky swear.


Hahaha are you sure you are a member of Dongbangshinki?


Yes! More importantly.. I’m the member of Dong Bang Shin Ki that loves you!!



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Why am I so nervous? It’s not like I haven’t performed this song before…


“Hey are you ok? You don’t look too well..” my bandmate asks me as we wait in the wings for our group to be called.


I smile, “Yes.. I guess I’m just nervous..”


“Haha don’t be.. We’ve fought this far.. Just enjoy the moment and sing with your heart.”


Oppa!! No more signals during your performances ne!! If you want to send me a message.. just sing with your heart and I’ll know you love me!!


“I know. Don’t worry I will.” I say as I high five him and watch him leave. I guess that’s all I can do.. Sing with all my heart one last time to you.. so you know that I still love you, but I will move on like you wanted me to. Where ever you are..


I hope you can hear me..


I love you…


with all my heart


and


goodbye..


"Now representing the Red Team performing Love in The Ice, Rising stars of Asia… TOHOSHINKI!!!!"



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“Unnie look its Dongbangshinki!!! Saranghaeyo Mick Yoochun! Youngwoong Jae Joong! Choikang Changmin! Xiah Junsu! Uknow Yunho! Saranghaeyo! Dong Bang Shin Ki!!!”


Setsunai hodo

My heart


Oppa.. you have reached another goal. I am so proud of you..


Utsukushii ai dakara

Don't be afraid


No matter if we never speak to each other again.. just to see you ,I am content.


Hakanai hodo

Let you know my love


I’ll always be here to support you


Uruwa shii

You know


and smile for you always…


Kono toki wo

Let you know my love too


Goodbye.. my love..


“Unnie!! Wasn’t that amazing!!! Oh my god they stole the show.. look at everyone” my sister screams at me excitedly as I watch you walk off stage.


Oppa.. I felt your message.. I love you too.. and I will always love you..


“Unnie? Are you crying?”


I smile as I wiped my tears, “Ne.. It was such a beautiful performance… I could feel their emotions.. They poured their heart and soul into this performance..”


“Hahah of course they did.. they are Dong Bang Shinki. And unnie haha you will be a Cassiopeia till the day you die huh?”


“Ne till the day I die. Come on lets go home.”


I stand and begin exit the studio and watch the rush of fans run towards the back to catch a glimpse of you leave… Even though I want to be part of that group.. it is too soon.. I look up and see a banner of you.. and can’t help but cry. Yes… I’ll be your Cassiopeia till the day I die… and you will be the shining star in my heart always.. I’ll always protect you..


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Excuse me miss.. can I have a moment of your time?


Oh.. you are oppa’s manager hello and yes of course. Is there something wrong?


No.. well yes.. I’m here on behalf of the company… to ask you to please break up with him.

Why? How could you ask me to do something like that?!?


It is for the good of Dong Bang Shin Ki.. they have gone through so much to reach the level of success they have attained and will only continue to rise. But..


But what?


He is worried for your safety as you may know.. being a fan yourself… They treat Dong Bang Shin Ki as untouchable idols and there have been rumors on naver and dbn about him having a girlfriend.


….


He does not want you to get hurt.. so has already turned in his resignation paper.


No….


Please.. if not for the company or the group.. then for him.. He has so much potential.. We are willing to give you a monetary compensation in exchange for doing this. Any amount.. the company is willing to give you.


I’ll do it..


Oh thank you .. how much do you want? I am authorized to write you out a check in any amount.


I am not doing it for the money.. I’ll do it because of my own reasons.. you don’t have to worry.. He won’t resign.. but please fulfill my request..


What miss?


Please make sure he stays happy.. don’t let him ever become sad…


You give up the chance to be wealthy… and ask only for this? You must really love him..


His happiness is worth more than anything you can give me..



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“ Yah you sang amazingly tonight” my bandmate says as he clicks his glass to mine, “Here is to a wonderful performance, the end of one year and beginning of another.. and to us!”


I smile and toast with everyone and take a sip, the end of one year.. and beginning of another…


Have you already found another love already? Have you already moved on? I hold my glass high and toast to you. Thank you for teaching me how to love.. and where ever you are.. I wish you all the happiness and joy in the world.


“Excuse me…” a young girl came up to me, “There was a lady that came earlier this evening and left this for you.”


“Hmm? Thank you.” I smiled as I put down my glass and took the box and card. I wonder who it is from..


As I open the box and see a crystal on a light stand I wonder who would send me such a thing. I turn the stand on and tears began to fall from my eyes.. A heart… engraved underneath it:…


I can’t be with you.. but my heart will always be yours.. locked away in the ice til you come back..


I open the card..


Smile always…


I will always be your cassiopeia…


“Wow.. who is that from? One of your fans?” my bandmate said as he looked in awe of the crystal, “Are you ok?”


I smile wiping my eyes, “I’m fine.. and no.. its not from a fan.. but from my special star.”


My one and only shining star …


The End.